...between being Off-Source and On-Source
I, Dana Franks, am applying Step B of the A to E steps per HCO PL 23 Dec 65RA, SUPPRESSIVE ACTS, SUPPRESSION OF SCIENTOLOGY AND SCIENTOLOGISTS.
In 2008, I decided to start looking to see what Scientology is and how it is applied. However, instead of going to the source and reading what LRH has to say, I started looking at various online sources that included anti-Scientology entheta. Each claimed they were “on-Source,” as LRH intended. I now know and am publicly stating: This is not true. Not only were they not standard but what they said was meant to hurt not only Scientology but myself and anyone else involved with them.
As I continued my research, I found myself more and more interested in the tech. However, I was open to being antagonistic and negative towards Scientology because it felt like the “cool” way to operate – joking and degrading about things. I made posts sympathizing with others who were dramatizing their own overts by lashing out against the Church. I see now that I wasn’t at a great tone levelat that point and felt the need to tear down others to build other people up. I posted under the name “RedNeckThetan,” recognize this as suppressive, regret it and take responsibility for it.
As you’ll see, as covered in Step B, my actions were truly ignorant and unfounded.
Because I was not doing my research from the correct source, I went off-Source to find ways to apply the tech and this is where the SP influences come in. I began doing “Skype auditing” with David St. Lawrence (who Marty Rathbun speaks highly of) which was totally crazy. During the “sessions” David focused solely on my ruin and did not do any looking at previous similar incidents, and there were never any ruds checks beyond seeing if I was eating and sleeping. Instead we went over my ruin over and over again, introverting me further. He talked like a psychologist. I corresponded with several people on various forums including Rathbun’s site, Silvia Kusada’s site including “Plain Old Thetan” (name is John Joseph, now a declared SP), hoping to learn more about the tech.
In response, I got answers that proved to be incomplete and altered but urged me on a path that I later found to be out-tech and what LRH calls squirrel.
I see why LRH says this.
I was given information on how to receive auditing through non-standard places, specifically a squirrel group in the Midwest where I was told I could do “courses” on my own. I also came in contact with individuals such as Shannon Kimoto, who invited me to come and meet her so that she could “give me pointers” on Book One auditing.
All of these people are declared SPs and were destructive when they were in the Church.
I was given advice on how to do the Purif on my own – without a C/S – which would have been a disaster both case-wise and physically. Shannon Kimoto told me that she would be happy to answer any questions I had once I was on the Purif which, as anyone knows, is totally squirrel.
Throughout this time in 2010, I was conducting myself as a squirrel would, as an “Independent.” I shared part of what I had found to be my ruin and was dabbling as a dilettante with the intent to fix it and then go on my merry way, without actually learning the full tech or contributing to sharing it with others. Instead of showing me how completely off-Source such a viewpoint was, I was actually encouraged with this. And that exposes the “Independents”: Their actions only hurt.
In HCO PL 23 Dec. 65RA, SUPPRESSIVE ACTS, SUPPRESSION OF SCIENTOLOGY AND SCIENTOLOGISTS, LRH lists this as one of the suppressive acts that knowingly suppress, reduce or impede Scientology or Scientologists:
“Issuing alter-ised Scientology technical data or information or instructional or admin procedures, calling it Scientology or calling it something else to confuse or deceive people as to the true source, beliefs and practices of Scientology.”